Michelle Carter stands accused of encouraging her deceased boyfriend Conrad Roy to kill himself over text message. She’s charged with involuntary manslaughter, and the prosecution said Tuesday that she played a “sick game” with the life of another human being.
Court documents, which can be read in full at the bottom of this article, reveal the shocking exchanges between the couple.
In one exchange depicted in the documents, Carter texts Roy that his parents know he’s in a “really bad place” and “can accept it,” even going as far as to say “it’s now or never.”
Carter: I think your parents know you’re in a really bad place. I’m not saying they want you to do it but I honestly feel like they can accept it.
They know there is nothing they can do. They’ve tried helping. Everyone’s tried, but there is a point that comes where there isn’t anything anyone can do to save you, not even yourself.
And you’ve hit that point and I think your parents know you’ve hit that point.
You said your mom saw a suicide thing on your computer and she didn’t say anything. I think she knows it’s on your mind and she’s prepared for it.
Everyone will be sad for a while but they will get over it and move on. They won’t be in depression. I won’t let that happen. They know how sad you are, and they know that you are doing this to be happy and I think they will understand and accept it. They will always carry you in their hearts.
Roy: Aww. Thank you, Michelle.
Carter: They will move on for you because they know that’s what you would have wanted. They know you wouldn’t want them to be sad and depressed and be angry and guilty. They know you want them to live their lives and be happy. So they will for you. You’re right. You need to stop thinking about this and just do it because over turning always kills, over thinking.
Roy: Yeah, it does. I’ve been thinking about it for too long.
Carter: Always smile, and, yeah, you just have to do it. You have everything you need. There is no way you can fail. Tonight is the night. It’s now or never.
Carter also allegedly gave specifics on how to use carbon monoxide gas from his car to commit suicide after Roy suggested siphoning CO from the exhaust pipe of his truck:
Carter: Yeah, it will work. If you emit 3200 ppm of it for five or ten minutes you will die within a half hour. You lose consciousness with no pain. You just fall asleep and die. You can also just take a hose and run that from the exhaust pipe to the rear window in your car and seal it with duct tape and shirts, so it can’t escape. You will die within, like, 20 or 30 minutes all pain free.
The court documents also say that Carter suggested carbon monoxide over other methods like hanging:
Carter: Oh, okay. Well I would do the CO. That honestly is the best way and I know it’s hard to find a tank so if you could use another car or something, then do that. But next I’d try the bag or hanging. Hanging is painless and takes like a second if you do it right.
The documents further say that Carter would admonish Roy for not going through with suicide:
Carter: Are you going to do it today?
Carter: Like in the day time?
Roy: Should I?
Carter: Yeah, it’s less suspicious. You won’t think about it as much and you’ll get it over with instead of wait until the night.
Roy: Yeah then I will. Like where? Like I could go in any enclosed area.
Carter: Go in your truck and drive in a parking lot somewhere, to a park or something. Do it like early. Do it now, like early.
Roy: Like, why am I so hesitant lately. Like two weeks ago I was willing to try everything and now I’m worse, really bad, and I’m LOL not following through. It’s eating me inside.
Carter: You’re so hesitant because you keeping over thinking it and keep pushing it off. You just need to do it, Conrad. The more you push it off, the more it will eat at you. You’re ready and prepared. All you have to do is turn the generator on and you will be free and happy. No more pushing it off. No more waiting.
Roy. You’re right.
Roy: Okay. I’m gonna do it today.
Carter: You promise?
Roy: I promise, babe. I have to now.
Carter: Like right now?
Roy: Where do I go?
Carter And you can’t break a promise. And just go in a quiet parking lot or something.
And according to the court documents, Carter texted him “You just gotta do it, babe. You can’t think about it.” The final exchange is below:
Carter: Are you gonna do it now?
Roy: I just don’t know how to leave them, you know.
Carter: Say you’re gonna go to the store or something
Roy: Like, I want them to know that I love them.
Carter: They know. That’s the one thing they definitely know. You’re over thinking.
Roy: I know I’m over thinking. I’ve been over thinking for a while now.
Carter: I know. You just have to do it like you said. Are you gonna do it now?
Roy: I still haven’t left yet, ha ha
Roy: Leaving now.
Carter: Okay. You can do this.
Roy: Okay. I’m almost there.
Featured Image: Michelle Carter’s text messages are displayed as prosecutor Maryclare Flynn delivers her opening statement in Carter’s trial, Tuesday, June 6, 2017, in Taunton, Mass. Carter is charged with manslaughter for allegedly using text messages to encourage her boyfriend, Conrad Roy III, 18, to kill himself. (Pat Greenhouse/The Boston Globe via AP, Pool)